gray cubes and pale legs
our hallway is this yellow-tan-ish color, I have to walk down it to get to the bathroom. seriously need to do something about the mirror in the ladies room, I can't work thinking my butt is as huge as that mirror makes it look.
feeling like a complete moron because my cute kapris are the same color as my super pale legs under the wonderful fluorescent light of my office. have a horrible headache and just feel like I can't do anything right just now.
stupid javascripts, I'm not a programmer I'm a designer - good grief
... i think i have fluff on my face
too late, already tried
lost 4 paragraphs of good blogging!
not retyping!
overview
1. so you think you can dance
Benji&Natalie - good
Ivan - bad
2. living room rearrainged
3. busy weekend plans
parents
kids
lunch w/Tim
yardsales
blueberry festival
gotta go
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Bethy visited!
I just love that my little sister lives close enough to visit whenever she
wants! Out of no where she called yesterday to say that she could spend the
night at our house - so surprised and delighted :)
Unfortunately I've started my new 5-9pm schedule where I'm lucky if I can
stay awake till 10pm, and she didn't get to our house till 12pm. I
basically opened the door, apologized for drooling on her pillow and went
upstairs to drool on mine. Then this morning I got up, got dressed, and
checked with her before I left at 5:50am to make sure she didn't want to
take me to the train station... She didn't :)
Anyway it's just nice to see her and nice to be so pleasantly surprised!
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The never ending day...
Here I am sitting in my cube... My head is numb and my brain feels like it's
been clubbed.
I am so sick of being creatively cut off at the knees. I can take some
degree of constructive criticism, but it galls me to no end to have my
designs questioned. I rant in my head "do people not know that I've been
doing design work for 10 years?! why don't they respect my designs?!" then
I turn and smile "sure we can try that". I waste my days making things look
ugly because people want to see what it looks like their way.
I try to rationalize with them but they don't listen - they think if you
have to explain the concept then it's too much. I explain because you make
me, because you don't get what the user will in a glance. You can analyze
design all you want, but if you're thinking about what you want you won't
give the user what they need.
There are reasons behind my choices, I don't randomly select colors and
styles and throw them together. Thought should always go into design, if it
doesn't it's not design, it's a mess. If I don't explain the concept you
think I'm pulling things out of my ears, if I do explain you think it's too
much work.
Fine, have it your way but you're going to look bad and then someone's going
to blame it on me.
what's that?
it seems that Calvinism has been coming up a lot more these days. last tuesday my sister-in-law was over and somehow we ended up talking about it. then thursday we get our copy of the Liberty Journal, a long term benefit of attending Liberty University and the featured story is about Hyper Calvinism. And while I'm not a huge fan of all of the views of the Falwell organization (if you know me well you might have even heard me say Jerry Far-as-is well - which was me trying to say you're better off being as far away from Jerry Falwell as you can) I often agree with the underlying principle they're addressing... it's how they "address" it that often offends me.
Anyway I ended up talking with Dan and Tim about it on Sunday, granted my understand of Calvinism is rudementary, one of the major points being that not all of us are selected/elect by God to be saved. The first thing that always pops into my mind is "wow, they've got some ego's". I mean, if I truely believed that God only chose selected people to be saved how on earth could I think that I was anywhere close to being chosen?! What kind of opinion would I have to have of myself to think that God Himself chose me over anyone else?!
I already know I don't deserve salvation but that's why God extends His Grace to us - for by grace are we saved through faith, and that not of ourselves lest any man should boast - and that while we were yet sinners He died for us. Not for some, but all! He is not willing that any should perish but that all should be saved. I know I've paraprased rather badly, but you get the idea.
It's funny, I always thought I came from a rather libral belief system, but I don't think of it as liberal anymore. I have definite beliefs like, I don't believe that you have to be baptized to be saved (though as followers of Christ we should follow his example and at some point, when it's right in our spiritual walk, should be baptised as part of our walk with Him), I believe we are all given the gift of salvation and that some don't take the gift. So, while I don't agree with Calvanists, or some Baptists, and I think it's sad that they think that way (we can't fathom God's Grace, why are they trying to limit it) I don't see much point getting mad about it. The bottom line for me is that ultimately we're not the ones that decide who's right and who's wrong, God is the Judge and our focus shouldn't be on someones particular interpretation of scripture, it should be on Him and His will for our lives.
That's my rant for now ;)
Lunch at DeL
Welcome to Monday! I'm feeling pretty good today, slept like a log on the train ride in to work this morning. It's what I get for staying up late watching PBS's Mystery - Ms. Marple. I just love Ms. Marple mysteries and enjoy the flashbacks that watching the "Mystery" intro graphics - it's like a cartoon of sorts and it hasn't changed in at least 20 years.
Tim came over for Sunday dinner yesterday and it was great, we ate out on the porch and ended up having a nice chat. He's looking great and feeling pretty good from the looks of it. Really proud of him. Dan also gave him his old laptop, with warnings about it running slow , it has a wireless card so all he needs is a wifi hotspot and he's set! Who knows maybe well all start getting email from the boy!
Well I've got to finish up my BLT and get back to work!
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schools over!
The school year is coming to an end. Marshall had his last day of school June 1st and Ri has her last half day of school tomorrow June 9th. Here's a picture of Marshall with Mrs. VanCleave his preschool teacher. He just thought she was the best teacher ever! I remember picking flower with him for her, it was his idea and he was so careful with the flowers. When he finally gave them to her he was so excited he just kept jumping and jumping.
Here another picture of Marsh with some friends from school, the second girl over is Emily - her and her mom, Brenda, gave Marshall rides to the baby sitters after I got my job in Philly. They really saved us a lot of headaches.
Couple of weekends ago Rianne and I went to NYC with my sister. Ri got some too sweet ice cream that started to make her sick... so I took a picture :) It's absolutely hillarious the look she has on her face. Lucky for her she stopped eating it before it really made her sick sick :)
Works going well for both Dan and I. He recently hired one of his contract guys full-time so now he has two employees under him. I also started doing a lot more creative work and am really loving it. The people at work are really nice too so that makes it really easy.
Off to make sure the kids are in bed - talk w/you soon!
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